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V β¦ Cyberpunk 2077RESIDENCE β¦ Emerald District, alone w/2 cats
GEMBOND β¦ Ruby
It's V; you know what to do.
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Date: 2022-05-21 03:51 am (UTC)he was quiet for a while longer but he did eventually speak again. he spoke softly, his voice flat and forcibly devoid of emotion. ]
You need to stop caring 'n forget about me. It would save us both a lot of time and grief.
[ he paused a moment before he continued. ]
I'm a broken man who's got no redeeming qualities. I'm a waste'f your time'n your goodwill. You can't fix me. I'll just hurt you. It's all I'm good at.
[ true or not, v genuinely believed what he said this time. it was his truth even if it may not be the literal truth. ]
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Date: 2022-05-29 10:12 pm (UTC)[ roman knows well enough that this? this is the sort of situation where v has to want it bad enough to try. no amount of tugging or pushing or pulling is going to help anyone "fix" v, whatever that fucking means. sure he has an attitude and a tough shell, but god he's sweet and funny beneath all of that, and roman wants to keep that and cherish it.
he looks at v, his brow furrowed. ]
I'm no saint by any means. I'm friends with you because I like you regardless of who or what or how you are. You're... I care about you, V. No amount of calling me "just a good fuck" is going to get me to just give up on how much I care about you, okay?
[ he closes his eyes ] I just want to be here for you, because clearly you're hurting, or you're... uncertain. [ "afraid" maybe, but he won't say it. ]
Can't help it, V. I am what I am. And I like you for who you are. Nothing needs fixing unless that's what you want. And that's not being naΓ―ve or some shit, that's just human nature. We've got flaws and vices and sins up to the sky, and frankly, I don't have time to judge people on those or want to manhandle them into a shape they don't want to bend into. If I like some... it's for who they've shown me they are.
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Date: 2022-06-07 02:51 am (UTC)he was internally tearing himself apart: the rational part of him recognized what roman was saying and accepted it as truth and found comfort in it but what was left of him knew that roman was only saying what he wanted to hear and wanted something from him. and even if roman was being genuine, if he wasn't just saying things to get something from him, v knew that whatever the hell this was wouldn't last. if roman didn't leave then v'd ruin it somehow. he always did. he was no good. ]
I... want to believe you, Roman. I really do. There's a part of me that's finding comfort in what you say and I so much want to take what you're sayin' at face value and just accept it but I just can't.
[ he hesitated here. he considered letting his thread fall and simply leaving it at where it was. he slowly uncurled and finally looked over his shoulder to roman. the other man couldn't see the way that he was picking at the skin around the metal inlay in his arms but that didn't mean he wasn't doing it. ]
There's this dark part of me that's just black as pitch and it tells me you're just sayin' all this to make me feel better so things go back to how they were. You could weaponize what we got against me, use my trust to betray me so that you can have whatever you want from me. Always been better to burn the bridge long before things get there.
[ he stopped straining to look at roman but he didn't fully turn away from him. ]
Even if it don't come to that then you could always leave like everyone else, or I could fuck everything up like I'm prone to doing.